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August 19

My exciting news

Hello everyone.

I was trying to wait a little while but I can not contain myself any longer or I am gonna burst.

I have some very lovely exciting news.

I am going to be a nan for the third time, whooooo hoooooo.

Yes that's right my son Dave and his girlfriend Gemma are having a baby. It is very early days and they have only told immediate family for now but I just had to share it with someone so I thougt who better than my space friends out there.

I think it will be due late march or early april not qute sure yet. Ooooooh I just can't wait.

Hope you all as happy as me right now.

Love and hugs Gill. xx

August 17

Hen Night

Hi guys !!!

Here I am after a week or two. I really have had nothing to blog about that had any interest.

Last night I was at a hen party and I had a fantastic time. It was the sister of my sons girlfriends party.

We arrived on two fire engines. They are retired engines which this company buys and hires out for functions. You have loud music pumping throughout the journey and you have a glass of champagne.

When the engines arrived Nikola whose party it was thought it was a stripper arriving when she saw the firemen arrive as she had no idea where or how she was going. Gemma had a rranged everything in secret. We all wore the same black t - shirts with Nikkis hen party printed on the front in bright luminous pink and on our backs were our names and our relationship to the bride.

The party was at a greek restaurant which does lovely food and entertainment, there was a belly dancer and no it was not me before you think it lol and then there was greek dancers and plate smashing a singer who was fun and then the disco which was brilliant.

I was quite drunk as you will notice when you see the pics I am going to put on soon. I had no voice this morning when I went to work because of all the singing and shouting I was doing. I did a bit of karaoke too as I love that lol.

I am very tired now though through the lack of sleep I got last night.

Oh as the fire engines were approaching the venue they put on the sirens and flashing lights it was brilliant. The firemen gave Nikki a firemens lift into the building. I was glad it weren't my hen night as I would have died with embarrassment.......he would have put his back out haha.

Enjoy the pics.

Have a great week everyone.

Love and hugs Gill. xx

July 30

Joseph

Hiya .

Firstly I musy apologise to you all as I have not been around to visit much lately. I just don't seem to have the time or the inclination at the moment. When I do have time there is not enough time to do everything that I need to do here.

Please bear with me and please don't forget me as I am still here lol :)

Last night I went to see Joseph in the west end of London. For those of you across the pond that is our theatre district the equivalent of Times Square in New York.

It was absolutely fantastic. My hands were sore with all the clapping at the end. We were 5 rows from the front. I would go as far to say that is was one of the best musicals I have seen and I have seen a lot of them. I usually go about twice a year. We have trips from work so we get reductions for the block bookings.

After been back from holiday 3 weeks I have eventually got back into my diet lol. I went to slimming world tonight and I had lost 2 lbs so hopefully this will be the new start I was waiting for. I have to look better for the beach in september. Notice I did not say good only better haha.

Well hope everyone is well and I will try and visit soon..

Love and hugs Gill. x

July 27

30th birthday bbq

Well I have had a lovely weekend. We went to a 30th birthday which was a bbq. It was the brother of my son's girlfriend. My son lives with his girlfriend in the house you will see on the pics. It is Gemma's parents house and t is beautiful both inside and out. It is a five bedroom detached house with a very large garden and at the bottom of the garden is a lake with ducks living there. Each bedroom has it's own en suite bathroom.

They are a lovely family who have come from a working class background and worked their way up in life and made their money through hard work.

Anyway the bbq was beautiful, there was everything you could think of to eat from burgers, sausages for the kids and chicken, ribs, kebabs, lamb steaks, pork steaks all with home made sauces to accompany them. There was roast potatoes and garlic bread, it was absolutely beautiful.

To finish off they brought out a chocolate fountain with fresh pineapple, bananas and marshmallows to dip in. Well yes you guessed it my diet went out the window again lol.

Oh and plenty of liquid refreshment too , needless to say I had quite a few pimms lol.

Enjoy the pics.

Have a great week, hugs Gill. xx

July 22

Omg I feel so bad

I am feeling so bad and so ashamed of myself this evening that I am writing this to get things off my chest and then I will be logging off as I do not even feel up to being on spaces tonight.

You all know the things that have been getting me down and the way I feel about my boss how she speaks to people. Well to day she has over stepped the mark and I blew my top and wiped the shop floor with her.

It will take too long for me to tell the whole story in a blog and so I will not go into details but it was about the way she spoke about a member of staff wanting a day off work for her uncles funeral. My boss Julie ignored her and spoke to her through me. She had come into work in the morning and told me she needed time off for the funeral but she did not know when it was yet as they were waiting for the post mortem results. I said to her that as soon as hse knew to tell us and we put her down for compassionate leave. Later in the day she came and told me her mum had text her it was next tuesday so I said that's fine take the day off. Well my boss piped up and said just because you want to go to a funeral does not mean you automatically get a day off with pay. All the time she did not acknowledge the girl. I was so embarrassed that I said it's alright I will sort it. Well I went away for a few minutes but I was so cross that I said you know what I am not letting her get away with that this time and I flew at her on the shop floor. I can tell you that I did not mince my words. I can't remember if I was swearing or not. I told her that nobody liked her and that all my family and friends blame her for my stress and that she has no people skills and she brings everything on herself. I left it then as I needed to calm down.

I was now at the end of my shift but I felt guilty as I knew I should not have acted like that on the shop floor and I should have had more respect for my manager. So I decided to find her to apologise, not for what I said but how I had said it. I also told her she was rude and pig ignorant.

When I found her she was crying in the office. I could have crawled in a hole I felt so bad. The thing is also I have never ever done anything like this before in my life. We had a long chat and I was an hour late leaving work through it. I took the girl in the office and Julie apologised to her to stop her going to personnel about her.

We sorted things out and I think we are okay now but I really do feel so awful. I have bought myself a bottle of wine and I am now off to drink it.

Hugs Gill. x

July 17

Maisie video

Maisie has learned something new. Evertyime i try to capture her on video she moaned as she doesn't like the camera pointed at her. Anyway i have posted this video of her. In the beginning she is glued to the television watching cbeebies.
Bear with her and in the last minute or so she will show you her new thing :)
Enjoy my sweet Maisie aged 10 months.

Wasn't she SOoooooooooooooooo CUTE ^_^
Hugs Gill. x

plumbing problems

At last I have running water again.

I had a new fitted kitchen about three years ago now and up to now have had no problems with it. Last week I noiced a leak under the kitchen sink. I got John to look at it and it seemed better. Anyway it wasn't and it slowly got worse. I rang british gas as all my plumbing is insured with them and my kitchen appliances. The engineer came out and said it was the seals gone on the taps and that we were not insured for taps and they were not allowed to touch them...typical.

John then informed me that while I was at work on moday night he and his uncle had another look at it and had to turn the water off at the mains as they had made it worse and the water was spraying all over.

I bet you can imagine how unhappy I was when he told me I could not use the washing machine. I was like a raving looney and I said you had better go get the equipment you need and fix it a.s.a.p.

I could still use the dishwasher and the shower. It was just the washing machine and the kitchen taps I could not use.

Anyway he came in from work at 4 pm yesterday and got to work only to find he had bought the wrong size piping. So I said you had better get your arse back to the shop quick time mate. Back he comes with the right pipes and finally at 8.30 pm last night we were back in action. I did loads of washing and guess what this morning it is pouring with rain so I can't even hang it out. That is just typical.

Billy haas no playgroup today so I promised him we couls make some cakes for after dinner tonight when his mum and dad get home.

Hope you all have a great day.

Hugs Gill. xx

July 15

work update

Hi there,

My first few days back at work have been okay, better than I had expected. All the girls were pleased to see me back probably as it has been too quiet without me lol.

My manager the one I call the battleaxe has not really spoken to me though. Apart from giving me a job to do yesterday she has said nothing. There was no morning how are you feeling or nice to see you back. I think that is so ignorant. As a manager I feel you should say things to your staff even if you do not agree with what you are saying. I was signed off by a doctor therefore it has nothing to do with them how long I was off.

I am off for 2 days now to look after my babies.

Well I was informed this afternoon that Billy has head lice. I said to steph who has given him them? lmao Bless him his white blond hair really shows the lice up. Oooooh it does make ya feel itchy. He said look nanny I have some new shampoo so at least he was happy lol.

Also Wendy, Billy's rabbit died yesterday. Steph was really upset and did not want to tell Billy so she left the hutch door open and told him he had escaped and gone off to find all his friends. Billy said mummy has she died and steph said no. Billy paused and said okay can I have my kinder egg now please. Aren't kids funny. I think he was too young to have the rabbit really, so they are gonna wait a while before buying anymore pets.

I am feeling tired and not on spaces too much at the moment but I will visit you all when I get the chance.

Hugs Gill. x

July 12

I've been tagged

I have been tagged by UK Lady.

Here are 8 things about me:-

1. I spend my life on a diet lol.

2. I am a very emotional person and cry when I am happy and when I am sad.

3. I was born in the north of england and I now live in the south.

4. I have been married twice.

5. I adore my three children and two grandchildren.

6. I can talk for england and usually never stop.

7. I love to potter in my garden.

8. I am not looking forward to returning to work tomorrow.

There that's it. all I could come up with I'm afraid.

Had a great time last night out with the girls for my birthday. Had a lovely meal and a good old gossip. Had a few too may bevvies but hey why worry. This is my last day off work and I am not looking forward to tomorrow but I know I have to go back sometime.

Had my nails done yesterday and I am very pleased with them. They look really good. I did not have extensions only gel overlays on my own nails.

Well hope you all have a great weekend guys.

Love and hugs Gill. x

July 10

Here we go again

Morning all.

Today I am starting back on my diet.... I know I know don't laugh.

After all the crap that I have eaten on the run up to my holiday and while I was away. I am glad to be back eating healthily.

I went back to my slimming class last night and I had gained 4 lbs which is not too bad I suppose but enough is enough. I have to shed a few more lbs before I hit the beach in majorca at the end of september.

While we were on the road on holiday and when we were travelling from america into canada it was a 10 hour journey. We stopped every 2 hours for toilet and refreshment breaks, but it was at Tim Horton's or starbucks and it was like every stop we would have hot chocolate or latte coffee's with muffins and doughnuts or cookies and then luch time a macdonalds maybe. My little metabolism just can't cope with that kind of eating.

It was like every day I would say I am not having any and every day guess what I did. yeah ate them lol.

Oh well here's to fresh fruit and veg from now on.

Have a good day everyone.

Hugs Gill. x

July 08

spooky eh!

Hi all, I just had to share this with you all as I am finding it really weird.

On saturday morning I woke up in washington D.C and I said to Daniel that I had had a horrible dream. I had dreamt that when I got home from holiday that I was told that a colleague at work had died and that I had missed the funeral. This dream disturbed me as I did not want to think it was true and I found it strange that I would dream of this Debbie as she is not a particularly close friend.

Anyway when I got home and my sister in law phoned me I said to her is Debbie alright and she said yes I think so why?I told her about my dream and she just laughed. Later in the day yesterday she phoned me back and said you know you asked about Debbie and I froze. Well she said she is alright but her mum is dead. She died on the sunday morning.

Now is it me or is that really spooky. To think I am lying in washington thousands of miles away and dreaming of someone that has really no significance in my life. I think it is really weird.

Enjoy your day everyone.

Love adn hugs Gill. x

July 07

Honey I'm home

Hiya ya'll lol :)

Well here I am holiday over :( We have had a fantastic time. Seen and done so much. Te whole tour was really interesting. We have seen things that left me speechless and things that made me cry too.

New york was amazing and I just loved it. We did the harbour cruise and sailed around the statue of liberty. We also did an evening trip on an open top bus to see the city all lit up which was awesome. The new york skyline all in lights is a sight I will always remember.

Niagara Falls was really beautiful. We did the trip on the maid of the mist and being right next to those thundering falls is something else. We had dinner on the 50th floor of the skylon tower and watched the fireworks over the falls. Our horel room was on the 7th floor and looked right over the horse shoe falls.

I loved Toronto, it is a beautiful city with a beautiful waterfront. We went up to the 82nd floor of the CN Tower I chickened out of walking on the glass floor though.

We went to a dinner show called Oh Canada eh! which was a good laugh.

Washington D.C was enjoyable too. I enjoyed seeing the White house and while we were outside George Bush left in his helicopter for his flight to Japan for the G8 summit. We visited the Kennedy brothers graves which I found very moving.

As we left washington to go back to new york for our flight home we stopped in Philadelphia and saw the Independence Hall and the Liberty Bell. I wished I could have seen more of that city though as it was a bit old fashioned with it's horse drawn carriages and trolley trams.

Well I can't talk all night lol.

Thanks to everyone who has left me birthday wishes and gifts. I have had a quiet day as I am tired and I have had to do the washing and the shopping too. I received some lovely pressies and 18 cards.

Thanks to everyone who sent me e-cards too. I appreciate you all.

I ahve loads and loads of pics to load on the pc so I will try and do that tomorrow.

Lovely to back on spaces guys. Catch up with you all soon.

Love and many hugs Gill. xx

June 28

Hooray hooray it's a holi holiday

Hiya everyone,

Just to remind you all that I will be away on holiday from sunday 29th and will return on monday july 7th.

I have a lot to do today and so therefore I can not get round to visiting everybody. So I just want to say I hope everyone has a great weekend and a good week ahead.

Please take care of yourselves.

For those of you that may not know I am going on an 8 day touring holiday of usa and canada. Which includes new york and niagara falls.

To Pauline I really am looking forward to meeting you hunni.

Well must get on with the packing and all.

Looking forward to sharing my holiday pics with you all when I get back.

Love and miss you all, hugs Gill. xx

June 26

I apologise

I am feeling very upset at the moment as I have received a private message from a space friend who told me that she was very upset and very offended at my profile pic of the naughty nun. She said she thinks I am a nice person with a lovely family but as a christian she does not like this behaviour and therefore she has deleted me from her friends list.

I would just like to apologise to anyone else who I might have offended. It was not meant to hurt anyone and was only done as joke and a bit of a laugh to support another one of my dear and special space friends who was having a hard time. So to help one friend I have lost another. I have removed the picture now and once again I am sorry if anyone else was offended by this.

Love Gill. xx

June 24

yet another doctors appt

Morning all.

Well I have just got back from the doctors. All my blood tests have come back clear which is good news as this means I am a healthy bunny. The doctor though is in a turmoil as what to do with me. He knew that I was off on holiday on sunday so he has given me another sick note for a week and I have to go back and see him when I return from holiday.

He hopes not to give me medication and feels that counselling might be the answer.

I told him I was frightened to go back to work and he said that he would not send me back until I feel ready.

I went into work to hand in my sick note and luckily it was my sister in law Jayne who was the duty manager this morning but as soon as I saw her I started to cry and cry becaus eI do not want to go back to work. It is nothing that anyone has personally done to me it is just the way the business is going. I just can't handle it at the moment.

While I was standing talking to Jayne the personnel manager arrived and saw me crying so she had a chat with me. I told her how I feel and that I was thinking of stepping down from being a team leader and going backto ba cashier. She told me not to make any rash decisions and to come and see her for a chat when I get back from my holiday also.

The doctor said that I should go and enjoy my holiday and that sometimes when there are decisions to be made they are made more easily in a relaxed and away from it all atmosphere. So we shall see.

The personnel manager also said that if I felt easier about it that I could maybe come back on reduced hours for a while. I don not know what to think at the minute.

So guys I am going to concntrate on my holiday now and deal with this when I get back.

Hope you all have a great day.

Love and hugs Gill. xx

June 19

Hooray

At last. The travel agents rang this morning to tell me that my holiday tickets were in ready for collection........YEAH.

Only 10 days to go and then I will be up up and away and boy am I ready for it. My friends daughter works in the travel agents so she is going to bring them home for me.

I have been out for a pub lunch today with Billy and Maisie and my friend Carol. The weather was really nice. I have put some new pics in my album for you to see.

Tomorrow I have booked my self an appointment for a pedicure. I thought it would be a nice treat for me and to pamper my feet before my touring holiday. I have ordered a new camera for my holidays so I just hope it arrives in time. I want to be able to take loads of lovely photos to show you all.

I am quite excited as the day we arrive in washington d.c will be american independance day so hopefully that will be quite good.

Hope you all have a nice day.

Love and hugs Gill. xx

June 17

doctors appt.... update

Morning Everyone,

I have been to see the doctor this morning as you all know. Unfortunately not all my blood results were back. The ones that were though were all clear thankfully so I know there is nothing wrong with any of my internal organs.

The only two that had not come back yet were the two the doctor was wanting to check the most and they were my thyroid and the menopause.

He has signed me off work for another week as he said he can not treat me until he has these results. He does want to give me anything for me feeling down as it may be one of these two things causing it.

I have to go back and see him again at the same time next tuesday. I told him I was less tearful but I think I am suffering from anxiety type symptoms. To be honest I am feeling so much better not having to go in that hole of a work place at thre moment.

Steph has just rang me and said she has been and bought lots of picnic food did I want to come with her and Billy and Maisie for a picnic lunch so I ma gonna quickly tidy round and get myself out.

Hope you all have a nice day.

Love and many hugs Gill. xx

June 14

back to square one

After a lovely day out with my friend yesterday I woke up feeling quite positive about my life and I was fairly happy pottering about and catching up with the housework.

Then crash my mood came tumbling down again when I had a phone call from my daughter asking if she could come and stay for a few nights with the kids as her husband is being a real arse at the moment and treating her like dirt.

What could I say but yes, but I started to cry and shake as I can not handle these things at the moment. Anyway a bit later on she phoned to day she would not be bothereing as he had gone out for the night so she would stay home. I then started to cry and told her how I felt and that I could not cope with this at the moment I need some me time and that Billy shiuld not be hearing all this arguing.

Sorry to pour all my troubles out to you all just ignore me. I bet you are thinking oh here she goes again.

I just want to say thank you to a very special space friend who I will not name as she knows who she is. She spent 3 and half hours chatting to me on messenger and did she make me feel better in myself. Thank you sweet sis.

Hope you are all having a good weekend. I will hopefully be round to visit you all after my doctors visit on tuesday. I am hoping he will have some answers and solutions for me.

Love and hugs Gill. xx

June 12

Blood tests

Hi everyone.

Today I have been for my blood tests. I asked the nurse what exactly they were testing me for because even though I had the sheet telling me it meant nothing to me as I am not up on medical terms. Up until now I have ever really been ill apart from your every day colds and things.

Anyway I have had a full body m.o.t as she called it. They have tested me for everything that you can possibly test, sp guess what now I am worrying in case they find something I don't want to be found. Oh I am such a worrier at the moment.

I need to apologise to you all if I do not come by your spaces as I am not really in the mood for it that is why I am writing this to keep you up dated on my progress. If I do feel in the mood I sure will be round to see you all.

I would also like to thank all those of you who have visited me and left sweet and caring comments to me.

The doctor has told me not to stay at home too much on my own so after the kids go home tonight after dinner I am going to enjoy some me time. My close friends have rallied round me and tomorrow I am going out for lunch to the garden centre to spend some money and cheer myself up. Then she is taking me to a different store to do my food shopping as I don't want to go in to the store where I work or the management will be watching me saying things like she is well enough to shop so why is she not at work. That is what they are like in there.

Another friend is taking me out on saturday and another one on monday for lunch. I am having a break from Billy and Maisie too bless them and I feel so guilty doing so as I love them so much but I really do need some me time. When Steph knowsI am home she will always come up to see me which is nice of her but I really do need a little break.

Well I hope you all have a really lovely weekend.

Love you all and thanks for your support.

Love and hugs Gill. xx

June 10

Doctors appt.

I have been to the doctors this morning and made a complete fool of myself sniffling and bubbling all over him.

The doctor has signed me off work for one week while he does investigatory blood tests. I started to cry as soon as he looked at me and asked what the problem was. I told him everything had bothered me from as far back as christmas. Work and personal problems. I also told him that I thought I could be in the early stages of the menopause.

He asked me about my sleeping habits and my weight. I told him that I sleep well but that I am still always tired. I described my panic attack and how I was shaking while talking to him although you can't see me shake it is inside of me, if you can know what I mean.

Well like I said he has signed me off work and told me to do some things that I enjoy doing and not to sit about moping. I have to go for blood tests on thursday morning. He is gonna test me for thyroid, diabetes and menopause. Then I have to go see him again next tuesday morning.

He said he hopes it is a physical problem but suspects it could be a slight breakdown. If the blood tests come back negative then he will have to decide what is best for me next whether it is medication or counselling.

I told him that I am struggling with work at the moment and that I can't be what they want me to be and he said that I could be but that I had chosen not to be like them and that I should be proud of that.

He also asked me if I had thought of self harming. I said not really but sometimes I have thought only briefly things would be easier if I were not here. Those feelings do not last long though I am pleased to say.

I don't know what nice things to do to cheer myself up though all my friends are at work.

Well guess I will just have to wait now and see what the blood results show.

Have a nice day everyone.
Hugs Gill. xx

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